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1. |
Santa Barbara
06:25
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(spoken word):
An hour ago, you were born
A century in time
Sixty seconds in our own
You found me shortly thereafter
Forever after
And one.
For today was yesterday
And all that went before
Is yet to come.
An hour ago, you were born
A century in time
Sixty seconds in our own
I found you shortly thereafter
Forever after
And one.
For today was yesterday
And all that went before
Is yet to come.
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2. |
Either Side
01:25
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(spoken word):
Adrift
Unmoored between life and the Other
In the bustling silence there
Wherever it was
She heard his voiceless, anxious thoughts
And in kindness
Gently turned him back
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3. |
Infinity Hall
08:06
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Infinity Hall
Watch my thoughts alight before me
On a flight departure board
Infinity Hall
So scared
I couldn’t see, couldn’t find you where you are
Now I know it wasn’t time yet
And I didn’t get that far
Infinity Hall
Course correct me
Let your shining lights re-direct me
To the other half of my soul
Infinity Hall
There in the darkness
Where I find that I can’t speak
In the place I thought we’d meet
Somewhere strange, unfound, in sleep
And I know I’ve been here before
And her love and grace and kindness
Rain on down on me
They redound to me
Forever more
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4. |
Angels & Mortals
02:26
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(spoken word)
Angels and mortals
In the inner silence
In the pain of the world
Its weight
Filling our hearts
In sorrow
With love
Our minds with wonder
Our very essence with fire.
For Love,
Kind and mercifully forgetful
Does not remember our failures
Our flailing
All that we cannot forgive ourselves
Is taken
She pries it, silently, from our fevered grip
As we lay asleep
Blessing us
The tapes erased
The slate made clean.
When we cannot find our way
Can find no star
Can see no light
Nothing
In the shrouded, blackened heavens
Full of blood and judgment
And below
Under heavy walls
Like a beacon
She re-illumines, she
Fills in all the colors
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5. |
Anthem 5
06:26
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Hours of darkness
But can’t sleep
The love I give you
Is yours to keep
Dreams of flight
Where we glide and leap
Dreams of you
When I wake, I weep
And tho’ sorrow finds me
I know you’re alive
Deep inside
Help to guide me
Oh!
Days alone and unending
Nothing heals, nothing’s mending
Days so lonely I’m bending
Toward the light you keep sending
But tho’ sorrow finds me
I know you’re alive
Deep inside
Help to guide me - oh!
Hours of darkness
Before I sleep
The love we shared
Is still ours to keep
Dreams of you
Where we fly and leap
Dreams of you
When I wake, I weep
But tho’ sorrow finds me
I know you’re alive
Deep inside
Help to guide me
Oh!
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6. |
In Spiritu
08:19
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7. |
Emergent
06:52
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Higher
Seek you, higher
And I don’t know
Bereft of breath, where the rest of us goes.
Ten minutes gone
No fog of glass
In memories pane
Ever lost, ever last
In extremis
In alarm
On the phone
Left in fear
Left in tears
Left in silence alone
Higher, seek you, higher
And I don’t know
Bereft of breath
Where the rest of us goes.
Spirit hovers above astride
Fragile and burning and longing to rise
Enshrouded in clouds, the veil of sky
Parting, emergent, just now from on high
The time comes, the time is gone
The time is not what we believe - the time is one
Inside the forever not fearing death’s sleep
There’s more to be known
I know I must seek you higher
And I don’t know
Bereft of breath
Where the rest of us goes.
Ten minutes gone, no fog of glass
In memories pane
Ever lost, ever last
In extremis, in alarm, on the phone
Left in fear, left in tears
Left in silence alone
Spirit hovers above astride
Fragile and burning and longing to rise
Enshrouded in clouds, the veil of sky
Parting, emergent, just now from on high
Higher, seek you higher
Higher
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8. |
Back to You
02:53
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Our phantom life
Hear its whispers, there
Reach exceeding my grasp
Heed the saints there that call me
Light the sky’s way
Light the path
That takes me
Back to you
Find the shadow way forward
Hidden from all but we
To be found
Guided by faith
Guided by truth
Guided by love
Toward the sound
Inside a dream
Where the message
Holy as song
Encrypted comes clear
Guided by the secret folds of time
Laid open
Guided oh so near
Guided back to you
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9. |
Secrets of Strangers
06:26
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10. |
Hope Whispers
02:04
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(spoken word):
Something quiet
Unseen
But known somehow
Familiar from some half-forgotten life
awaking ethereal remembrance
A feeling growing, glowing inside
Deep within the well of our chest
“Do you know it?”, she asks -
Connects us.
Through time, it finds us
Across epochs
Astride ages
To guide
To heal
Stirring us in spite of ourselves
Against our own misguided will
Powerfully
Protectively
Certain.
At our side in an invisible instant
Vanishing again
Before we can fully awake to caress it
With trembling fingers
It is gone
But known somehow
It has found us
We are changed
“It will again”
Hope whispers to us
Nothing ends
You are forever.
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11. |
The Night
05:35
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12. |
Dark Lullaby
05:54
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Take me now when I’m quiet asleep
Quiet asleep on my own
Take me now, it’s past time for me
Time for me to come home
Take me now and all I believe
Take me now, take me home
My whole life long
Take me now, I’ve got vows to keep
Vows to keep and atone
Take me now as I lie beneath all the lives I have known
Take me now, I’m too tired to speak
Tired, defeated, alone.
My whole life long
Take me now
When it’s too dark to see
Too dark to see all my wrongs
Take me now, there’s no place for me
No place here I belong
Take me now, it’s not fair that we
Bear all we need for so long
My whole life long
Until that day
I pray
I’ll hear you sing and say and call to me
Forever faithful will I be
All my life long
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13. |
All The Colors
05:48
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14. |
Spring Storm
04:47
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15. |
Save Me
05:25
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Without even tryin’
You bring me safe to your island
And you save me
Without sign or warning
Bleakest night becomes morning
You save me
In the moment that I fall and call and turn to find you there.
“And always am” you tell me so
Aloft upon the air
Within the depths of the darkness
You unleash
You unharness
A love that
Saves me
Amidst the rancor and violence
You simply vanquish and silence
Simply save me
Every doubt, every fear
You wipe away every tear
The way you
Save me
In the moment that I fall and call and turn to find you there.
“And always am” you tell me so
Aloft upon the air
Every wrong, so embittered
Turns to dust
Turns to glitter
As you
Save me
From grief I’ll never recover
You bring rise to another
Find and
Save me
All the way ‘cross an ocean
You set the whole thing in motion
And you save me
Whatever fate I must weather
I know we’re always together
That you saved me
And so it’s begun now
All three become one
How you
Save me
Without even tryin’
You bring me safe to your island…
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16. |
A Place
06:31
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(spoken word)
There is a place
Not just this place
But every place
And all at once
That we don’t yet know
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17. |
Deux Anges
04:21
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18. |
San Simeon (You Said)
04:49
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Put your hair up
In the car
Halfway down the road we came
To halfway where we are
You said
You said
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19. |
Station to Station
05:20
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20. |
Starry Messenger
07:49
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21. |
Words & Wonders
02:02
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(spoken word)
Higher, in another quadrant of the sky,
The blanket of night would sometimes unfold,
And parting,
The brilliantine light of a distant star shown there.
From a place deep within the bosom of its crest,
Quiet messages would sound in insistent transmission -
Broadcasts to beloveds separated by the invisible veil.
As they lay restless asleep,
These whispers might find them,
The mourning,
The faithful ones below who most needed to hear.
Words and wonders
Of a place nearer than they could, merely mortal, imagine.
Words and wonders
To help heal their hearts,
Drop by drop,
In dreams
They raced to remember upon waking.
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22. |
Mission Street
05:56
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Un-asleep from the room upstairs
I hear you call
Let me soon be there
In our house, together in our house.
Lost in a life that’s twice too long
I cry out
Let me reverse all wrongs
In our house, our house
It’s true
Find my way across
Where everything that once was lost
And all forgotten - found
Let me hear the sound
Let me see you there
Angel wings on the morning air
Meet your eyes
As you softly rise
And say to me
“Darling, now…”
Come on over to our house
Home to the love that’s true
Come on over, it’s our house
Come over, I’m waiting for you
One side of the life we led
One side of a lonely bed
Entrusted to faith somewhere
My angel again in the morning air
As dawn reveals the day
Broken, awoken,
You teach me to say
Oh!
Come on over to my house
Home to the love that’s true
Come on over, it’s our house
Come over, I’m waiting for you
Not alone
You’re not alone
Wake alone in a painted room
Lit by the trick
Of a paper moon
Call to me!
Come on over to my house
Come home to the love that’s true
Come on over, it’s our house
Come over, I’m waiting for you
Not alone
You’re not alone
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23. |
Five Eight Eighteen
03:38
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(spoken word)
The memory of it, now
A dubious anniversary
Still seared and burning.
How it had
Inexplicably awoken her in her bed.
A world away.
Well before dawn.
In a panic.
Unknowing but certain of its wrongness.
Words dictated in an ambulance before he fell again unconscious.
Dropping everything to return.
And he…
Stunned to find her before him
When his eyes opened again, at last.
Must she remember?
The weeks of struggles.
The day of release.
His collapse before her eyes,
Just when it all seemed behind them.
The grim face in the hall
Telling her it was finished,
Only to return moments later with the news of a miracle.
Her whispered words as she held his hand
Although he couldn’t yet speak or remember.
Although she did, now.
Remember?
A week later on the roof
So they might be closer to the angels -
That she now knew were always there.
One in particular,
Now known not only to him
But to them both.
The tryptic.
Holy and indivisible.
This memory:
After all the pain
And every trial
Filled with the grace that most colored her character
How she turned and said
Without thinking, without temperance
“We’re so lucky”.
To know that was more than even the celestial ones could hope.
Something to remember after all.
After all.
After all.
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24. |
Know in My Heart
05:04
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All these years
Spent in the underground
Down the street
From the place we found
All I asked and if you want me to
I’ll hold fast
To all I know that’s true
I can’t bear
All that they put you through
My blood’s up
Each time I think anew
All I asked and if you want me to
I’ll hold fast
To all I know that’s true
In the air
With the earth below
So unsteady
In between’s our home
All I asked and if you want me to
I’ll hold fast
To all I know that’s true
Know in my heart
Hard to say
The way I wanted to
S'il vous plait
J’taime
No parlez-vous
All I asked and if you want me to
I’ll hold fast
To all I know that’s true
Know in my heart
It’s a love
Know in my heart
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25. |
Snowfall
05:26
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26. |
Promise
07:37
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And on and on
It takes so long to reach you
Just lift me up
I promise
I promise you
Tho’ all undone
I promise
I promise you my holy one
I promise
I promise
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27. |
Zephyrs
05:22
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28. |
Ghost 3
05:01
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29. |
White Light
02:52
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(spoken word)
In the hours after,
Vision at first quite blurry beyond the middle distance,
Sight finally fully returned, unaffected
Yet,
Sometime later -
Had it really been so much as a year? -
The strangest thing happened
And then again and again
Infrequent, but too often to ignore.
A multi-stranded column of light
Thousands of tiny rays
White
Rectangular
Ascending,
Following his gaze wherever it landed
Superimposing itself,
Transparent
Like gauze
Thin
Like a veil
Over all seen,
And unseen
Had begun to follow him.
For so long
A piece of him was missing.
First in grief
Then nearly vanquished
By the events
Now
Now, roughly burnished
Purified with their fire
He could at last be certain
The Underseen
Like a friend, now
The dearest one of all
The column of light
In these sacred, unpredictable hours
Followed him,
He knew
With love and protection.
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30. |
Treasure
07:02
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Ah!
And when I laid me down and cried
You were the angel at my side
You give me faith to know you’re there
When I hear birdsong in the air
I miss you
And I know you are my treasure
And I know you live forever
And I know you are my treasure
And I know you live forever
But I miss you
And when I lay me down to die
You’ll be the angel at my side
And in your arms again, at last
I’ll find the future and our past, again
I’m with you!
And I know you are my treasure
And I know you are forever
And I know you are my treasure
And I know we are forever (know we’ll be together)
I’m with you!
Ah!
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