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    Michael: This album is actually conceived as a double-record. If you grab the CD version, it's two discs. The break is between "Moulding" (Track 7 here, last track on Disc 1) and "Never" (track 8 here, first track on Disc 2). So, for purists, hit pause, come back, resume. With thanks... BPX

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Honored in the Critics Poll of Best Albums of 2013 by Ground Control Magazine as "the most heart-stirring album of the year, it feels and sounds like music that is really from inside someone's own skin, skeleton, bloodstream and remains the most significantly stirring and addictive musical accomplishment I've come across in some time", OF LOVE AND LOSS (Slugg Records) is the second record from NYC's minimalist indie rock band, Bipolar Explorer.

A double-record, OF LOVE AND LOSS, is both a testament and tribute to their fallen bandmate, Michael's Love and Partner, Summer Serafin, who died, tragically, from injuries after an accidental fall.

The record is an eclectic mix of the studio recordings made with Summer on dual-vocals and the home ones written and recorded by Michael after her passing. Of, for and about Summer, the disparate sounds comprising "Of Love and Loss" seem entirely appropriate given Summer’s own fierce commitment to retaining the immediacy of the band’s demos in all “proper” releases.

Proceeds are marked for the memorial fund in Summer’s name: Summer Serafin Memorial Transplant Fund, c/o University of Minnesota, Minnesota Medical Foundation, PO Box 64001, St. Paul, MN 55164-0001.

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released October 26, 2012

Summer Serafin: vocals
Michael Serafin-Wells: vocals, guitars, bass, percussion
Jason Sutherland: guitar, backing vocals
Sean Lahey: guitar, backing vocals

All songs written by Michael Serafin-Wells - c.2012 thirteen november music (ASCAP).
Additional guitar, bass & percussion ("Flag Day", "No Answer") - Alan Foreman.
Recordings: Alan Foreman (Brooklyn) and Michael Serafin-Wells (BPX mobile).
Mastering: Scott Craggs, Old Colony, Boston.

Produced by Bipolar Explorer

Cover: "Mediterraneo" by Alex Alemany (www.alexalemany.com).
Photo courtesy of the artist. Used with the artist's permission.

NOTE: This record is of, about and for Summer Lindsay Serafin. Our beloved bandmate. The love and light of my life. My gingersnap. My little sweetheart. My conscience. My protector. My soulmate. My treasure. My true one. My critic. My holy collaborator. My trusted confidant. My partner. My only one. My truth. My best friend. My life. My everything. She passed from this world on March 18, 2011 from injuries sustained after a tragic, accidental fall. She was just 31.

At that hour, as we left the hospital weeping, at that hour that I vowed to take her name, we looked up at the sky and the clouds parted to reveal a celstial event known as the perigee-syzygy or "Supermoon" when the moon, earth and sun align, the moon passing in its closest orbit to the earth - a phenomenon that occurs once every 17-20 years. Once in a generation.

Diagnosed with Type One Diabetes at the age of five, Summer was, in 2007, the recipient of a double-organ transplant - kidney (her brother, Ryan) and pancreas (anonymous donor). These surgeries saved and changed her life (as she did mine). Proceeds from this record are marked for the transplant fund in her name, so by purchasing this record, you have already helped. Thank you.

Please consider a further donation to this very worthy cause via: Summer Serafin Memorial Transplant Fund, c/o University of Minnesota, Minnesota Medical Foundation, PO Box 64001, St. Paul, MN 55164-0001.

Thanks to the Serafin family.

All for you, sweetheart. Until that day. Until that day.

-Michael Serafin-Wells
New York City - August 2012

www.bipolarexplorer.info

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Cited by Ground Control (Best Albums of the Year) as "taut, emotional, urgent and altogether haunting" and PopMatters as "eclectic, steadfast and powerful, Bipolar Explorer are an NYC-based minimalist indie dreampop band featuring Summer Serafin (vocals), former Uncle frontman Michael Serafin-Wells (lead guitar & vocals, bass), Jason Sutherland (guitar & backing vocals) and occasional guests. ... more

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Track Name: Letter (to the Darkest Star)
Love you like no other
Come for me
Never be another
Come for me
Took you, took your brother
Come for me
No reason I can discover
Come for me
Only lonely
Come for me
Everything that you told me
Come for me
From nothin' but dirt
Come for me
Do nothin' but hurt
Come for me
And I can feel you
But I don't know where you are
Won't you take
However distant or far
Come to me in secret dreams
From the darkest star
Won't you take me where you are?
Track Name: Flag Day
Halfway through the year since you've been here
Their words don't mean much but who's counting?
Letters prepared with a frosty air
The blow-offs keep on mounting
You could never be sure you would ever have her
There's no point in denying
Nowhere to return when every bridge has been burned
So why not give up for trying?
Go on - run and hide
Like every other time
All those dear, dear friends from way down the other end
Were oh-so-clear how they showed it
With all their charms
Welcome you with folded arms
The whispers you couldn't hear, now you know it
As bad as it is, it's as good as it gets
This empty, idle threat is the best offer yet
Go on - run and hide
Like every other time...
Track Name: Ocean
Swallow your tears and make them mine
Tide's gone out and my mind's made up
Swallow your tears and make them mine
Swallow your tears and I'll turn back time
Tide's gone out and my mind's made up
Until That Day
Meet you under the waves-
Walk all the way to heaven
Until That Day!
Until That day!
Track Name: No Answer
No answer
For the way you are
The way you are
In my heart
All and all and only you
Nothing to do
Can't help but fall
Nothing more to choose
Happy to lose myself in you
Just fall
In my heart
In my heart
Track Name: So Anyway
Bury me underground
Where I can't hear a sound
I'll just slip away
Like every yesterday
If I could take your place
The end you had to make
I'd gladly make it mine
Bring you back to find
All on our own
Only alone
For anybody else
And even for yourself
There's no one here to see
Still means the world to me
All on our own
Only alone
Send your dark clouds for me
What mighta coulda been
Can now never be
No need to defend
We all are in the end
Send your dark clouds unto me
I guess you probably know
Would even tell me so
There isn't any doubt
I'm never finding out
All on our own
Only alone
Send your dark clouds for me
What mighta coulda been
Can now never be
No need to defend
We all are in the end
Send your dark clouds unto me
So anyway I guess
It's only for the best
We'll have to leave it there
Still clawing at the air
All on our own
Only alone
Track Name: Out
Don't call me out...
And when you go
'Cause you're not mine
I'm just one more
thing to get behind you
So never mind
Forever more, anyway
Don't call me out
And every time you stray
It gets so hard to find a way
I can't find you
From where I stand
Your words aren't clear
And I can see your life from here
But never mind
Forever more, anyway
Don't call me out
Don't call me out just yet
Track Name: Moulding
Keep pushin' what ya know's untrue
Pushin' me away from you
And right up to the line
Of what's yours and what's mine
Wield your silence to keep me down
So fuckin' sure I'll just hang around
Wait forever for you
Like you're the best I can do
But this time it's not like before
I'll follow the moulding around your door
And outside to a world away
Where there's nothing more left to say
Still up to your same old tricks
Nothing one of your lies can't fix
And every one of your friends
Left all at loose ends
You'll drag 'em all into this
With your lingering bitterness
If you can't get your way,
You'll make everyone pay
But this time it's not like before
I'll follow the moulding around your door
And outside to a world away
Where there's nothing more left to say...
Track Name: Never
Although you'll never know and it's much too late now
Even if it's no one's fault how it always breaks down
Even if there's only so much more that we can even take now
Even so, there's one more thing I just gotta say now
I didn't wanna
I never wanted to
Fall in love with you
Thought it something there just for me and you now
So hard to see you share it with somebody new now
But maybe it's all you know, it's just what you do now
I didn't wanna
I never wanted to
Fall in love with you
Can't believe the best thing
That I ever had
Could make me feel so bad
I thought we'd have more time
I really thought we'd have our whole lives
I'll have to push that aside
Pack up my heart, choke down my pride
'Cause that's him on the other line
That's his car just pulled up outside
I didn't wanna
I never wanted to
Fall in love with you
Oh, my love...
Track Name: Necessary Weight
Maybe a thing or two
More left to say to you
On the way to the Love that's True
But you're always so far away
Misstep right off the mark
Words better said in the dark
Still stuck in my throat and heart
Always so far away
Your turn
Think it over sometime
Let it burn
Way it always does mine
Lay me down on the dash of your car
And dream of the place I dreamt you are
Between an ice grey moon and the morning star
Always so far away
Walls begin to crumble
And the ground just falls away
No matter what they told you
No matter what they say
Walls begin to crumble
And the earth just falls away
By any measurement or standard
It's just a necessary weight
Lay me down on the dash of your car
And dream of the place I dreamt you are
Between a steel grey moon and the morning star
Always so far away
You're always so far away
Always so far away
So far away
Far away...
Track Name: Dead End Street
You can talk yourself into anything
Believe it's true
But nothing you can say
Will ever make me believe again in you
All you did just to break it
All you do can't erase it
Dead End Street
Lost our way down a
Dead End Street
No return
You tell me where to turn
When anything that ya wanna
Is everything that you're gonna
You tell me who gets burned
When everything that ya wanna
Is anything that ya gonna
Dead End Street
We can never replace it...
Track Name: Anyday
My stupid hands
My foolish mouth
Let the one cover the other
Never let it out
I'll never know
It's so unfair
Dreamt you float alive above me
Catch you in mid-air
If only...
'Cause now you're gone
Now you're gone
And I'm still alive
And anyday is a good day to die
Don't sleep
Can't find my way
There's nothing left of without you
All I need to say to you
But now you're gone
Now you're gone
And I'm still alive
And anyday is a good day to die
I close my eyes to find you
I'm right behind you
'Cause nothing so unkind could be true
Sleep is finally mine
And you...
But daylight shatters
Daylight shatters
Nothing matters
Anyday's a good day to die...
Track Name: Comin' Home
Build their walls around
Just to keep you down
But they don't see you
They don't know
What they say - don't do it
Nothing more than a lie
And they choose it
They don't see you
They don't know
Tell somethin'
Tell me all
Can't wait
I'm comin' home
You're everything I think of
Everything I love
Lived a lonely life
And swore
I was maybe alive before
But whatever that was I don't know
Built my life around you
Couldn't ever really live without you
Just you and me
I know that you know
Tell me somethin'
Tell me all
Can't wait
I'm comin' home
You're everything I think of
Everything I love
Comin' home
Tell me somethin', tell me all
Comin' home, Summer
I can't wait
I'm comin' home
You're everything I think of
Everything I love...
Track Name: Lost Life
I still remember the day that we met
I'm still not anywhere over it yet
I remember the day that you died
I only wanna be with you on The Other Side
And somehow
Someday
Somewhere
Some way
It was a beautiful life that we had
And I miss you, now, baby
Oh, so bad.
The Light's gone out
And I ache like thunder
I still need you
And I just wonder if...
Somehow
Someday
Somewhere
Some way...
Ah!
Life's so lonely without you
But I bet
I haven't even seen the worst of it yet
All the love inside you
It saved me
And I know
That wherever you are now sweetheart
Is where I must go
So, somehow
Someday
Somewhere
Some way
Ah!
Track Name: Molding
Keep pushin' what ya know's untrue
Pushin' me away from you
And right up to the line
Of what's yours and what's mine
Wield your silence to keep me down
So fuckin' sure I'll just hang around
Wait forever for you
Like you're the best I can do
But this time it's not like before
I'll follow the molding around your door
And outside to a world away
Where there's nothing more left to say
Still up to your same old tricks
Nothing one of your lies can't fix
And every one of your friends
Left all at loose ends
You'll drag 'em all into this
With your lingering bitterness
If you can't get your way,
You'll make everyone pay
But this time it's not like before
I'll follow the molding around your door
And outside to a world away
Where there's nothing more left to say...